Fear and Lies…

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She ran away with fear and a string of lies
She idolized her anger and would not hide it in her eyes

She grew up kneeling upon the steeple green
She grew so weary of trying to be clean

One day on her knees she heard The Holy voice
“Rise up, my daughter walk away from this noise.”

She stood up and cast those idols back to hell
And tore off the string of lies she had to tell

“I have made you blameless and set you free in life
why do you still cling to idols which can never be clean?”

She cried for joy and danced before the LORD God
and chose life that day upon the steeple green.

To Him who is able to keep us from falling and to present us before his glorious presence without fault and with great joy…to the only Wise God our Savior be glory, majesty, power AND authority, through Jesus Christ our Lord, before all ages, now and forevermore! Amen. Jude 1:24

The Great Refusal

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In the story of the Rich young Ruler which is a story that church attenders probably know well we see  this young man who did so many things right.

He came at the right time in his life. He came as a young man who was making his way in the world. He came from a “good” family. He had a career that was taking off, as we see, he is referred to as a “young ruler.”  From that we can deduce he was healthy and socially in good standing.

He came in the right way that one day that he approached Jesus. He came in humility and ask a sincere question.

He came to the right person which was Jesus the Son of God to have a theological dialogue about the Jewish laws by which they both lived. He knew that Jesus was a great teacher and had undoubtedly heard of his good deeds and healing of many people in the area.

He came for the right purpose which that he wanted Eternal Salvation and Redemption. It appears that this rich young ruler realized that his life still “lacked” something and had left him questioning “what must a man do to be right with God?” His demeanor appears in scripture to be one of sincerity.

He received the right answer from the LORD himself which was to give all that he had to the poor, to leave his family and follow Jesus.

In the end however, at least at this time in his life, we see that he made the wrong decision in his refusal to do as Jesus asked. His immediate response was “I have too much responsibility, I have a good job, I have my parents and family to take care of.”  This decision of refusal left the young man walking away from  Jesus and the Bible states, “he went away sad.”

My take away from this story is this…regardless of where you are whether young or old, rich or poor, sick or  well…Consider Jesus. Don’t refuse even if all seems right to you.

Mark 10:17-22.

“never build your case for forgiveness on the idea that God is our Father and He will forgive us because he loves us…” Oswald Chambers

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The week after the Resurrection, yes 2000+ years after the Resurrection, Jesus is still alive. Jesus is still the ONLY atonement for sin that would/did/does appease the wrath of a Holy God…

To complete the quote in the title of this post Oswald Chambers goes on to say, “God forgives sin ONLY because of the death of Christ…anything that LESSENS the holiness of God through a false view of His love, contradicts the truth of God as REVEALED by Jesus Christ…”

This truth has radically changed me…

I beg you friend, do not contrive for me
yet another design of how to be…
Holy
When I do wrong and am severed from
His Joy
Your penal guilt cannot restore…
my wounded soul.
My God is full of light and grace
His eyes see where my failures…
Lie
Do not promote for me more alters
that do not lead to…
Transformation
Dilute not His New Wine
with the dredges of obligation
It is His very own mystery that eradicates
My guilt
The only righteous judgment is in the blood
He spilt…
Jesus saves me

Holy Breath

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I suddenly wake and I can’t see anything
I start throwing my fear around
I open the window and look for the sun
and for signs of the spring…

 

and then I can breathe
I can feel each Holy breath…
Then I hear my babies laughing
and smell roses in the air

 

Deep inside a sweet voice whispers
What have you to fear?
and then I can breathe
I can feel each Holy breath…

 

At night I gaze up into the heavens
and someone calls my name
I laugh at the man in the moon
and peace comforts me again…

 

and then I can breathe
I can feel each Holy breath…

It is Friday…Jesus is dead…all his followers are scattered…the earth is dark…fear prevails…death is at the door for us all…it is finished…Jesus is dead…it is Friday…but Sunday is coming.

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Death is scurrying down its oily street where the demons of the wretched lurk…no goodness can be found…death steals access to your inner self and distorts all clarity. Death cares nothing for the future. Death is all decaying and old. Death is a cruel fabric when handled carelessly wreaks hideous selvages unraveling, snagging, and ruining the Tapestry of Hope.

It is Friday…Jesus is dead…all his followers are scattered…the earth is dark…fear prevails…death is at the door for us all…it is finished…Jesus is dead…it is Friday…but Sunday is coming.

 

Jesus, breaking through religion…

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Every relationship Jesus enters, every attack he encounters, every question asked him
all serve to affirm and reaffirm his absolute authority over the world of man. He doesn’t just have authority, He IS authority.
Jesus defied all boundaries and shatters perceptions about the true nature of God and of devotion to God. Prior to Grace the call of the devout is clear: Learn the system and keep it faithfully but no one could or can! However, Jesus knew no system and was not part of a system. Jesus weaved unafraid in and out of established religious customs abiding by some of the customs while exposing others to the “farce” they were (are).
So many of my distortions have been reworked within me and some even on the “outside” of me…accepting The truth of the fact that Jesus knows how to bring distortions and formulas out into the open so that we can see them in the light of Himself!
The instant Jesus touches you Hope brings reality. Jesus’ power is not something he possesses it is who He is. Redemption, healing, creating…these are the fibers of Jesus’ being. Jesus chose to accept the limitations that came with his existence as a human being but never negates the fact that this person Jesus is Creator and God.
Peter walked on water. Jesus did not condemn Peter or the other disciples for their fear or doubt he only asked them to consider their lack of faith. Why to you doubt, fear, or have little faith? My answer is because I take my eyes off THE ONE, Jesus and instead focus on where I am coming from or going to. I dwell on the storm not really seeing and knowing THE ONE who is standing beside me, living with me, interceding for me.

When we allow our fear or wounds or failures to define us this is a red flag that we are not seeing our Lord correctly! What is the correct view of Jesus? That he is the only source of hope, security, healing and peace in this world or any world regardless of what awaits us . I know this for sure, religious or spiritual pride is the lie that says we are somehow elevated above others. That we have somehow DONE something or achieved a “skill” or “formula” in the ways of God…no we (I) have not.

I am so thankful for Grace,  is the only way I qualify to be called a daughter of The King. Let it be done unto me as you have spoken Lord God.

“I’ll risk myself and come down to you…

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If you have lived any part of your life without receiving the love of Christ then you have known the dark places that lie at the heart of what may or may not appear to be light. Like many Christians before me I am compelled and pushed toward this light driven somewhat to the point of desire for perfect love, which cast out all fear. In the book of first John he states, “this is the message, in Him there is no darkness AT ALL.” I hope in these words daily. What an astounding profound statement and fact. I want this person, Jesus, who is the Light. I want to bathe in it, live in it, and roam the halls of eternity in His warming light.

An author, Dan Allender writes, “if you really want to know God and his love you will know madness.” This marvelous, scandalous love of the God/man intrigues me so.
Although love has the component of something sweet that makes me “feel” good most of that time it is only a fraction of the Wholeness in Him.

REAL LOVE it dawns on me is dangerous, not safe. Love is risky. It will get hold of you from the inside out and its grip is so tight that if we could stand the squeeze we find ourselves willing to do anything for its sake. In the words of the warrior-child Lucy in C.S. Lewis’s Chronicle of Narnia I am reminded over and over of the fact that God is absolutely GOOD but He is not safe.
He is the one who says, “I’ll risk myself and come down to you because I choose you and so you may find me and be amazed at my pure light of love and glory. It will do you Good for Good is who I am.”

the wind is blowing harder now…

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the wind is blowing harder now
the fragrance of earth and sea…
the dirt of my birth
the water vivid blue green…

the melody is clearer now
you are singing over me
the sound of my birth
the song of my dreams…

you know all of my stories
you hold all of my tears
my wonder of glory
my Champion of fears…

let the wind blow harder now
I am watching on the shore
my heart can hold what will be
and all that has gone before…

 

The Human Jesus…

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By way of Christ’s suffering God became real to me. His human-ness, his longing for life and his longing to help and love others draws me to him. I think sometimes it is easy to shrug off, so to speak, Christ’s God-ness. It is a given right? His Divine nature, the Alpha and Omega in all his glory seems somehow more familiar to one who grew up in a Christian home. It is hard to wrap my head around is this man who is able to sympathize with my weakness, my so very fragile attempts to be good for him. He, as a human being sees my offerings that fall so short compared to what He offers and gives so freely.
One tradition of Lent encourages us to “give up” something for forty days. I was not raised with this tradition so it interests me to hear people say they will give up candy, soda, or a certain food or activity for the Lenten season. This action has caused me to ponder the suffering of Jesus. I have concluded, not for others, but for myself that any offering I make seems so small in comparison to Jesus, who gave up his God-ness and put on human flesh only to have his Father God turn his face away while he bore all the sin for the entire world. Somehow giving up candy or something else seems absurd but I understand why people want to do it. I understand that because they love Jesus they want to honor him in some way even if it seems silly or small. I certainly am not belittling this tradition or the act of giving up something for Lent.
The Lenten season is about honoring the sacrifice Jesus made for me. It is a time to reflect upon whom Jesus is and what he has done for us as well as contemplate our own Christian character or lack of it. Lent should not be a legalistic or showy event. What you give up or don’t give up is between you and God because we who are believers already know there is NOTHING we can give up or do that is worthy of the sacrifice Jesus made for us.
So for me this Lenten season, I continue to reflect on that fact that “once I was blind but now I see” and I am going to reflect and adore the ONE who took my sin and death and gave me life.